the end is (not) nigh

eh, hello again...november 2010? oh hell, yes almost a year. doesn't matter, i've got something big on my mind to tell. besides, from now on, this blog will only be updated if there's something extraordinary, since i begin to think.... telling unimportant things to people every day is just one big mistake. shame on me, but at least i'm trying to change this habit haha

ok then, what's the matter? soooo if you notice the date, then you might figured out what's this big thingy. straight up, yesterday, a website or maybe 5 website announced the result. result what? snmptn* result goddamnit! and straight up once again, i failed ha ha ha. huge disappointment came down, and i was like "fuck! what the hell is this man, fucking joke!". do you know what is like to be really fucking fucked up? yes, it happened to me, once, and it's yesterday.

am trying to be a big man, but it's kinda failed too. i watched the timeline on my twitter, saw most of my friends got really happy. but don't get me wrong, i do envy them, but i'm also happy for them. well, you know, they deserve it.

"be strong, hold on, make it through the day!" - fys. now i'm trying to be. this is not the end, there are 2 other ways remaining which is SIMAK & SMUP**. i realized, there's no need to swearing at the monitor. those swearing words won't make you accepted at the university, all we gotta do is struggling! fuck yeah there's no time to waste! tho i'm wasting my time posting this blog ahahahah damnit, i'm trying to motivate myself, what's so wrong about it? haha

come on lads, whoever you are, if you're with me, then let's get it on! the bloody SIMAK is just 3 days ahead, we can still do this! let's make this worth the effort! i promise, 17 & 24 July Will be my fucking day!

ps: this blog should've been posted yesterday, but when i hit post button, it goes "bad request, 404". at least it's has been posted now haha